Why Can't We Be Friends?

   You're an ass hole who has completely wronged me that's why. Enough said right? YOU hurt me. YOU tore me down. YOU made me feel terrible about myself. For days, weeks, and months I have doubted myself because of YOU. I am the mess I am because of YOU! This is going to take years of psychological help to get over. YOU have wronged me in such a way that now my life is being drafted for a made for t.v. movie on Lifetime.
   Now for the big question: Who is "YOU"?

  I think it is safe to say that everyone has a "YOU" in their life. It's those people that I can point to and say if it wasn't for "YOU" I would be a better person. I wouldn't have these issues I have right now. I wouldn't doubt myself. I would have more confidence. I would be an all around better person if "YOU" hadn't screwed up so badly.
   "YOU" is that close family member who was suppose to be there but wasn't. They treated their family like strangers. "YOU" is that Christian leader who was suppose to hold up their congregation but instead watched some fall. "YOU" is that friend who was never suppose to abandon their other half but instead decided they were better off alone. "YOU" is the collection of all those people who were suppose to do something or be something for me but just never pulled through.
  So here's the deal God, I am going to be bitter about these people and I am going to continue to blame them for the way my life is now. It only seems fair right? I mean it is their fault. What's that? Reconciliation? Forgiveness? You're going to build me back up? But I walked away. I am good. I don't need to go back into all of that. I am fine. Am I fine?
  I guess that in many cases the word reconciliation can seem like closure. For a Christian it is so much more. Romans 5:10 tells us that we were reconciled through the death of Jesus. Reconciliation was salvation for Christians. And as such we are expected to practice reconciliation in our life's. A friend recently reminded me that Paul tells us in Matthew, that we are to leave our gifts at the alter and be reconciled with our brother before we offer our gift( Matthew 5:23-26). God takes reconciliation seriously. I think it's about time I started to be more serious about it too.